This is how I feel tonight. A few harsh words, a slight of hand from a much trusted friend.
Why is it people say things that hurt you, destroy your self esteem, and then tell you it was a joke, or they didn't mean it?
Apologies over and done with, but it's too late, the damage has been done. The words used will remain a barrier for me towards this person. Also, I have a long memory when it comes to personal insults.
It does not take much to tip the scales when it comes to the fragility of our outer shells. Attacking the 'man', is something I rarely do and I hate it when others resort to this modus operandi.
What's that old saying, once bitten, twice shy? From now on, I am "twice shy" with this particular person.
Friday, August 31, 2007
Monday, August 27, 2007
Iraqi Dryad's
I know you are wondering what this has to do with Iraq, right? A magical image, something to take your mind off things. Just look at her, isn't she something special?. She is a Dryad, yes a weird name.
According to Micha F. Lindemans of the Encyclopedia Mythica, she is a female spirit, or nature nymph, who preside in the forests, http://www.pantheon.org/articles/d/dryads.html
Each nymph is born with a certain tree, over she watches. If she lives IN the tree, her name changes from Dryad to Hamadryad.
Should the tree perish, then she dies with it. If this is caused by a mortal, then the Gods will punish him/her for that deed. Apparently the Dryad's themselves will also punish any thoughtless mortal who would somehow injure "her" tree.
I wonder about the missing "Shadow's" of the palms in Baghdad. Are the US soldiers being punished, not only by the Resistance, but by the Dryad's as well?
Those Palm Tree's in Baghdad were something special, it therefore seems logical to assume the Dryad's were special also.
Iraq needs all the help she can get, if it comes in the form folklore, so be it. We need to help, not sit on our backsides. Our voices need to be raised a couple of octaves louder, and don't think you are only one voice, and you won't count. You will count, you and every other person who join together in voicing your displeasure in your Government's actions.
YOU MUST MAKE IT COUNT.
According to Micha F. Lindemans of the Encyclopedia Mythica, she is a female spirit, or nature nymph, who preside in the forests, http://www.pantheon.org/articles/d/dryads.html
Each nymph is born with a certain tree, over she watches. If she lives IN the tree, her name changes from Dryad to Hamadryad.
Should the tree perish, then she dies with it. If this is caused by a mortal, then the Gods will punish him/her for that deed. Apparently the Dryad's themselves will also punish any thoughtless mortal who would somehow injure "her" tree.
I wonder about the missing "Shadow's" of the palms in Baghdad. Are the US soldiers being punished, not only by the Resistance, but by the Dryad's as well?
Those Palm Tree's in Baghdad were something special, it therefore seems logical to assume the Dryad's were special also.
Iraq needs all the help she can get, if it comes in the form folklore, so be it. We need to help, not sit on our backsides. Our voices need to be raised a couple of octaves louder, and don't think you are only one voice, and you won't count. You will count, you and every other person who join together in voicing your displeasure in your Government's actions.
YOU MUST MAKE IT COUNT.
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Yazidis Thread
Erf and Orang, just in case you happen to land on this spot:
In relation to Peacocks, Angels, Eggshells, and Imploding Threads of Erf
The Iraqi women have sent a prayer to their guardian angel. The Peacock's tail feathers have been plucked, along with his marbles, therefore rendering him useless. There is now no need to walk on eggshells and my composure has been regained.
This is my thank you to you. I hope you enjoy watching this http://youtube.com/watch?v=xs-Z-8xSnSc, as much as I enjoyed performing it.
In relation to Peacocks, Angels, Eggshells, and Imploding Threads of Erf
The Iraqi women have sent a prayer to their guardian angel. The Peacock's tail feathers have been plucked, along with his marbles, therefore rendering him useless. There is now no need to walk on eggshells and my composure has been regained.
This is my thank you to you. I hope you enjoy watching this http://youtube.com/watch?v=xs-Z-8xSnSc, as much as I enjoyed performing it.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Education and the Assyrian Cause
Today was terrible. I got hooked up on blogocracy with a guy called **** ** ***** *****. You know the type. One of those that thinks everything he hears on the news, or reads in the papers is 100% true.
I tried to educate him a little, regarding my family history, and Great Uncle Patros, and the http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_apDyzm3ag Assyrian mess. Also this , Assyrian Martyr's. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=37k8C74INVk&mode=related&search=
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7oDBIjbldw dedication.
All I ended up doing was spilling the beans of my personal history. It went way, way over the top. Tim, at blogocracy pulled the thread. I'm glad he did.
I said things I normally wouldn't say, describing them fully, in minute detail, my beautiful cousin Shushan, her repeated rectal rapes, at the hands of US soldiers and her subsequent suicide. The deaths of my niece and nephew, and their funerals, and the rape of elderly Aamia Sharifa
I asked him to put himself in my shoes, and how would he feel? I was that upset when I read his reply, I turned the computer off. I can't even remember what is was now, and can't read it again because the thread was pulled. Just as well, I suppose.
It's people like him, that believe this "war" is straight forward, and there are no twists and turns, that caused this in the first place.
Bushista's, don't you just love them? Those self righteous, puffed up tossers should be made to spend a few weeks "In the Shadow of the Palms" with family in tow, and learn by first hand experiences of a war zone. Maybe in down town Baghdad, or in Mosul.
They should walk the walk, before they talk the talk.
I have just remembered what he called my point of view - Logical Fallacy. I had to look it up, and don't fully understand. There was another logical fallacy regarding history -'just because you believed it to happen, doesn't mean it did. Confusing
Anyway, if you come accross him, he is a nasty piece of work, and is best to stay clear.
I tried to educate him a little, regarding my family history, and Great Uncle Patros, and the http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_apDyzm3ag Assyrian mess. Also this , Assyrian Martyr's. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=37k8C74INVk&mode=related&search=
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7oDBIjbldw dedication.
All I ended up doing was spilling the beans of my personal history. It went way, way over the top. Tim, at blogocracy pulled the thread. I'm glad he did.
I said things I normally wouldn't say, describing them fully, in minute detail, my beautiful cousin Shushan, her repeated rectal rapes, at the hands of US soldiers and her subsequent suicide. The deaths of my niece and nephew, and their funerals, and the rape of elderly Aamia Sharifa
I asked him to put himself in my shoes, and how would he feel? I was that upset when I read his reply, I turned the computer off. I can't even remember what is was now, and can't read it again because the thread was pulled. Just as well, I suppose.
It's people like him, that believe this "war" is straight forward, and there are no twists and turns, that caused this in the first place.
Bushista's, don't you just love them? Those self righteous, puffed up tossers should be made to spend a few weeks "In the Shadow of the Palms" with family in tow, and learn by first hand experiences of a war zone. Maybe in down town Baghdad, or in Mosul.
They should walk the walk, before they talk the talk.
I have just remembered what he called my point of view - Logical Fallacy. I had to look it up, and don't fully understand. There was another logical fallacy regarding history -'just because you believed it to happen, doesn't mean it did. Confusing
Anyway, if you come accross him, he is a nasty piece of work, and is best to stay clear.
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Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Trapped
We all live in some sort of web, trapped by life. It happens, and life goes on.
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Panic/Anxiety Disorder, Depression.
Depression is something we all have, at one stage in our life. Whether we admit to it, is another thing entirely. For most, it is something that last's a few weeks at a time. For others it is a noose around their necks, that gets tighter and tighter.
There are those that don't believe Depression is "real", and tell you to pull yourself together, and get on with life. Try explaining it to them, it just doesn't work.
There are two schools of thought on Panic/Anxiety/Depression.
1. Depression sets of Panic/Anxiety.
2. Panic/Anxiety sets off Depression.
I don't feel I had the Depression side, although thinking back, I probably should have. If it recurred, I know I would.
PTSD, Panic/Anxiety, is my area, I know it intimately and hate it with a vengence. My Panic Attacks started round 15 years ago, after I started a new job, in a high pressure area. I had absolutely no training for this position, and thought I knew it all. By the time 6 weeks were up, I was a mess, having panic attacks, but not recognising what "it" was.
Vomiting, shaking, crawling skin, rapid heart rate, frozen on the spot, unable to talk, no sleep, night sweats, buzzing head, violent headache's, irritable bowel syndrome, duodenal ulcers. The final insult, my hair fell out.
One day, I just didn't go to work. I couldn't. I rang and told them I was unable to continue. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. It took 2 years to claim some sort of life back and another 8 before I felt I was truly able to face a return to some form of work. I am, to this day still taking a 'maintenance' dose of meds. Neither I, nor my Doctor envisage my life without it.
Luckily my family were supportive, and my husband truly amazing. I do not know if I could have faced it alone. I will never know, and I don't want to. I am, once more in a high pressure job, and am coping well with a 6 day week.
I might add, in amongst this my daughter, Mandy, died in an accident.
This is only a small part of that journey. I want people to know that there is light at the end of the tunnel, and not to ever give up hope.
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Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Panic/Anxiety Disorder, Depression.
Depression is something we all have, at one stage in our life. Whether we admit to it, is another thing entirely. For most, it is something that last's a few weeks at a time. For others it is a noose around their necks, that gets tighter and tighter.
There are those that don't believe Depression is "real", and tell you to pull yourself together, and get on with life. Try explaining it to them, it just doesn't work.
There are two schools of thought on Panic/Anxiety/Depression.
1. Depression sets of Panic/Anxiety.
2. Panic/Anxiety sets off Depression.
I don't feel I had the Depression side, although thinking back, I probably should have. If it recurred, I know I would.
PTSD, Panic/Anxiety, is my area, I know it intimately and hate it with a vengence. My Panic Attacks started round 15 years ago, after I started a new job, in a high pressure area. I had absolutely no training for this position, and thought I knew it all. By the time 6 weeks were up, I was a mess, having panic attacks, but not recognising what "it" was.
Vomiting, shaking, crawling skin, rapid heart rate, frozen on the spot, unable to talk, no sleep, night sweats, buzzing head, violent headache's, irritable bowel syndrome, duodenal ulcers. The final insult, my hair fell out.
One day, I just didn't go to work. I couldn't. I rang and told them I was unable to continue. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. It took 2 years to claim some sort of life back and another 8 before I felt I was truly able to face a return to some form of work. I am, to this day still taking a 'maintenance' dose of meds. Neither I, nor my Doctor envisage my life without it.
Luckily my family were supportive, and my husband truly amazing. I do not know if I could have faced it alone. I will never know, and I don't want to. I am, once more in a high pressure job, and am coping well with a 6 day week.
I might add, in amongst this my daughter, Mandy, died in an accident.
This is only a small part of that journey. I want people to know that there is light at the end of the tunnel, and not to ever give up hope.
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Saturday, August 11, 2007
Hope and Apathy
I am not good at writing blogs. I sort of sit here, like this. I keep looking at the blank page, as if it is going to fill itself, and a topic will jump into my head.
Mayby if I had a Djinn?
As are many at the moment, I am sick of the fighting, the killing and sectarian nonsense. More so in Iraq, than the Middle East in general. This interview with a pro Resistance Iraqi might finally be the thing that binds them together.
http://www.informationclearinghouse.info/article18155.htm
I have made my views known to our government, in no uncertain terms, regarding Australia's involvement in the region. It has done nothing to help the situation, but it has made me feel better.
We have an election happening here soon, and I am pretty sure our PM is going to be voted out of office. I hope the new PM will listen to the voices of the people, and heed our wishes.
There is a general apathy here, when it comes to the Middle East. No-one seems to be bothered, the general impression I get from others, is that all Middle Easterners are crazy, gun toting murderers, that kill eachother. I know that to be an untruth. They haven't seen our committment to family, our history, our culture, and our laughter. Well, maybe not so much laughter lately.
I try and explain that it is a by-product of constant warring, there is no rest, no happiness, no hope. Not to mention the things we take for granted, like water, electricity, hospitals, and money. A lot of things are possible if you have money, but then again, some things are not. Layla mentioned 'the last Iraqi', he had money and it still didn't help him.
I hope the Resistance is able to pull this off, and unite once more, all Iraqi's.
Mayby if I had a Djinn?
As are many at the moment, I am sick of the fighting, the killing and sectarian nonsense. More so in Iraq, than the Middle East in general. This interview with a pro Resistance Iraqi might finally be the thing that binds them together.
http://www.informationclearinghouse.info/article18155.htm
I have made my views known to our government, in no uncertain terms, regarding Australia's involvement in the region. It has done nothing to help the situation, but it has made me feel better.
We have an election happening here soon, and I am pretty sure our PM is going to be voted out of office. I hope the new PM will listen to the voices of the people, and heed our wishes.
There is a general apathy here, when it comes to the Middle East. No-one seems to be bothered, the general impression I get from others, is that all Middle Easterners are crazy, gun toting murderers, that kill eachother. I know that to be an untruth. They haven't seen our committment to family, our history, our culture, and our laughter. Well, maybe not so much laughter lately.
I try and explain that it is a by-product of constant warring, there is no rest, no happiness, no hope. Not to mention the things we take for granted, like water, electricity, hospitals, and money. A lot of things are possible if you have money, but then again, some things are not. Layla mentioned 'the last Iraqi', he had money and it still didn't help him.
I hope the Resistance is able to pull this off, and unite once more, all Iraqi's.
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
She Is Dead
Copyright AL
For those of you that wonder.
Don't.
The anniversary of her death
Has just passed
She is...
the Whispering Wind
the Warm Sunlight on my face
the Stars in the Sky
the Beating Wings of a Butterfly
the Pure White Snow
the Moonlit Night
the Turbulent Waves
the Swirling Leaves
the Morning Dew
the Dancing Flames
the Misty Morning
the Dark Night
the Tears on my Face
the Ache in my Heart
the Emptiness Inside
the Earth
the Air
the Fire
the Water
She was 7.
For those of you that wonder.
Don't.
The anniversary of her death
Has just passed
She is...
the Whispering Wind
the Warm Sunlight on my face
the Stars in the Sky
the Beating Wings of a Butterfly
the Pure White Snow
the Moonlit Night
the Turbulent Waves
the Swirling Leaves
the Morning Dew
the Dancing Flames
the Misty Morning
the Dark Night
the Tears on my Face
the Ache in my Heart
the Emptiness Inside
the Earth
the Air
the Fire
the Water
She was 7.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Too many Ands.
Why is it so? The people of the West think they know what is right for the rest of the world.
Is the Middle East doomed to a living hell, being mismanaged , orchestrated and puppeteered by people like Bush? He has set a time line for troops. Really, he has. Honestly. He said so.
Except for troops training Iraqi soldiers. And police. And diplomats. And US bases. And those looking for terrorists. And insurgents. And militia. And, and, and. I forgot, and the Green Zone.
One good thing. This is stirring up world wide controversy, here in Aus it is a hot topic. People are beginning to see the US for what it is, a Bully boy, who deals with the world exactly as he wants.
Also, it's nearly election time here. Our Liberal government, in power for 11 years, is going to get dumped, bigtime. I can't wait. That's not to say the next Prime Minister won't be allied to the US, but hopefully will be more truthful. It's got to do with import/export/farm produce, our economy and just about everything, it seems. One more, and Bully Boy, of course.
I did say there were too many ands.
I added the picture today. I saw it as something beautiful, fire and ice, in a world that is ugly, and that should be ashamed of itself. Either ashamed because they joined the US or ashamed because they stood by, and watched.
Is the Middle East doomed to a living hell, being mismanaged , orchestrated and puppeteered by people like Bush? He has set a time line for troops. Really, he has. Honestly. He said so.
Except for troops training Iraqi soldiers. And police. And diplomats. And US bases. And those looking for terrorists. And insurgents. And militia. And, and, and. I forgot, and the Green Zone.
One good thing. This is stirring up world wide controversy, here in Aus it is a hot topic. People are beginning to see the US for what it is, a Bully boy, who deals with the world exactly as he wants.
Also, it's nearly election time here. Our Liberal government, in power for 11 years, is going to get dumped, bigtime. I can't wait. That's not to say the next Prime Minister won't be allied to the US, but hopefully will be more truthful. It's got to do with import/export/farm produce, our economy and just about everything, it seems. One more, and Bully Boy, of course.
I did say there were too many ands.
I added the picture today. I saw it as something beautiful, fire and ice, in a world that is ugly, and that should be ashamed of itself. Either ashamed because they joined the US or ashamed because they stood by, and watched.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Shoot
After hearing the news regarding the College shootings in Virginia, my eyes opened wide in disbelief as I listened to the White House Wanker say:
"They were in the wrong place at the wrong time"
That struck a raw nerve in my gut. I thought about all the students in Iraq, the grieving parents and grandparents, the deaths and carnage left by the Americans. The insults and rapes by their oh so trustworthy soldiers.
However much I felt for the parents of the Virginia students, it was negated by Bush opening his mouth. But, then again any World Power who gives the population open access to guns, with no embargo, is asking for trouble.
In America, they are very big on the word trust, but can you trust them? No way. They can't even be trusted to be kind to a dog, as we have seen.
What an inane, senseless, society. Where is their culture? Their heritage? I'll tell you. It's in a cup of tea. I'll leave you to figure that one out.
"They were in the wrong place at the wrong time"
That struck a raw nerve in my gut. I thought about all the students in Iraq, the grieving parents and grandparents, the deaths and carnage left by the Americans. The insults and rapes by their oh so trustworthy soldiers.
However much I felt for the parents of the Virginia students, it was negated by Bush opening his mouth. But, then again any World Power who gives the population open access to guns, with no embargo, is asking for trouble.
In America, they are very big on the word trust, but can you trust them? No way. They can't even be trusted to be kind to a dog, as we have seen.
What an inane, senseless, society. Where is their culture? Their heritage? I'll tell you. It's in a cup of tea. I'll leave you to figure that one out.
Monday, April 16, 2007
Family Hell
Many years ago my race was nearly wiped out, I'm talking Assyrian here, so it's going back a long, long time. There were the Kurdo Turkish massacres in 1915 and various other's over the years.
I used to listen to the oldies talk, now there are not many oldies left. I never took any notice of what they were saying, couldn't be bothered. And now it's too late.
That was the start of the curse.
Now the curse is in Iraq. Anyone who lives in Iraq or who has family there, is not untouched by the murder and mayhem caused by the illegal invasion and occupation. Good old USA.
Look what liberation has done for them. Yeah, right, more like OIL. Killed their president, destabilised the whole region, destroyed families and incomes. Destroyed peace of mind. Hell, destroyed everything!
There is no nice words that I can use to describe the 'warm, wonderful, and loving' nature of President Bush. Dead set country hick, knows nothing except the ways of the KKK. I guess that's where he learned to be "master".
What is it like to be the Supreme Commander of Hell? In fact, he should not be a Supreme Commander, unless he is a resident. Should we demand that he live in hell for a while? Not in the Green Zone though. Somewhere nicer than that. By himself. Could we organise for the kill and drill team to visit?
How proud must the Americans feel? Super Power of the World. Do they realise the world looks on them as the Nazi's of the Milenium? Go team USA!
I used to listen to the oldies talk, now there are not many oldies left. I never took any notice of what they were saying, couldn't be bothered. And now it's too late.
That was the start of the curse.
Now the curse is in Iraq. Anyone who lives in Iraq or who has family there, is not untouched by the murder and mayhem caused by the illegal invasion and occupation. Good old USA.
Look what liberation has done for them. Yeah, right, more like OIL. Killed their president, destabilised the whole region, destroyed families and incomes. Destroyed peace of mind. Hell, destroyed everything!
There is no nice words that I can use to describe the 'warm, wonderful, and loving' nature of President Bush. Dead set country hick, knows nothing except the ways of the KKK. I guess that's where he learned to be "master".
What is it like to be the Supreme Commander of Hell? In fact, he should not be a Supreme Commander, unless he is a resident. Should we demand that he live in hell for a while? Not in the Green Zone though. Somewhere nicer than that. By himself. Could we organise for the kill and drill team to visit?
How proud must the Americans feel? Super Power of the World. Do they realise the world looks on them as the Nazi's of the Milenium? Go team USA!
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